Today is the only day in which we have any power

“There are only two days in the year that nothing can be done. One is called yesterday and the other is called tomorrow” (Dalai Lama)

I can’t change the past, and I can’t dictate the future. The past is fixed whether I like it or not. It is what it is, and the things I’ve said and done can’t be changed; they remain said and they remain done and this will always be so. I wasn’t trying to hurt people. I am a straightforward, honest and generous person without alcohol, but drinking made me nasty, and selfish. I did what I did because of drinking, but that doesn’t excuse it, it was still me that did those things. I am responsible, and all I can do is to try and put right the wrongs that I’ve done. We’d like instant forgiveness the moment we stop drinking, but trust is lost, and trust is not a simple commodity that can be given and taken, it has to be earned, and we have to re-earn that trust. I can only do this by becoming the person I should have been all along. I can’t do that in the past, and I can’t do it in the future. I can only do it today, now… right now in this instant we call the present. Today is the only point of contact with the world that I have any control over; it is the only moment in which I have choice.

My past is made up of tiny slices of what I did before. It is the sum of the deeds and words of the instants as they passed. Every day I had choices to make, and sometimes I chose poorly. My past is the consequences of those choices, good, bad and indifferent. It is fixed and can’t be changed, but my future is not yet fixed.

While I drank I made poor choices, disastrous choices, and hurtful choices… I rarely made good ones. I bore the consequences of those choices, but so did everyone close to me… I don’t want that happening again.

I can’t control the future, but I can change the odds. I do that by the choices I make right now… moment by moment… now. Now is the only moment I control and today is the only day that I can change the direction of my life.

What I have to do is the next right thing. Do that and my future prospects change for the better.

  • Beware your thoughts, for they become your actions.
  • Beware your actions, for they become your habits.
  • Beware your habits, for they become your character.
  • Beware your character, for it becomes your destiny.